Whenever I blog, it’s always about CO. Maybe you had already noticed. My school life is just too monotonous, as compared to the life I lead in CO, which is fraught with danger (ahem) and excitement. Whatever! T_T

I missed LYFE for CO yesterday. I feel quite bad about it, cus after all it’s the first LYFE session anyhows! But when I wanted to leave the co classroom to go for LYFE, wls arrived and she went on to rant about syf stuff and all and it just wasn’t nice to leave suddenly for LYFE, is it? It’s just plain erm [-insert word-].…? Like, you were there and suddenly you just decided to disappear? Aiix.

Anyway, today was the day we decided to perhaps, more or less finalise the list of people going for syf. It’s really tedious and there were like so many factors to consider. Urgh, you know, urgh!? At the end of the day, we decided to have a talk with yx, just to know what her decision is. I hate talks. I freaking hate little private serious talks. It’s just that heavy silence, no one cracking a smile, everyone just staring at the ground with a stony expression. It’s even worse than ygygls, and that’s saying a lot. And it especially sucks when you have to be the one who confronts (or rather, we cornered, urgh, the thought) the person. It’s crazy and insane, but it’s unavoidable. After all, it’s not fair to us and the others if we don’t know her decision and it drags on and on and on. What if she decides to quit in the end right before syf, like what ling did before concert? It’s not fair to her either if she has to force herself to come for each session, hating every moment of it. That’s just awful isn’t it? There was this huge immense silence hanging in the air, and all I felt was disappointment. Why is it that syf 2005 can feel so different from syf 2007? How is it that someone can be so enthusiastic about something in 2005 and lose all of it in the next few moments? All I know is, I miss having the enthusiastic yx!

Change your mind please? I wish the 3 of us zhonghuians can still get a chance to play together in syf 2007. That’s all. That’s it.


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I am sick with a bloody [metaphorically] red nose. What I really want now is a hot water bottle, a bowl of hot soup, a snuggly bed to curl up in, and hongkong dramas to indulge in. Not these lousy math worksheets. Not this lousy jianbao I am doing. Especially not this shit I am going through right now.

Whenever I blog, it’s always about CO. Maybe you had already noticed. My school life is just too monotonous, as compared to the life I lead in CO, which is fraught with danger (ahem) and excitement. Whatever! T_T

I missed LYFE for CO yesterday. I feel quite bad about it, cus after all it’s the first LYFE session anyhows! But when I wanted to leave the co classroom to go for LYFE, wls arrived and she went on to rant about syf stuff and all and it just wasn’t nice to leave suddenly for LYFE, is it? It’s just plain erm [-insert word-].…? Like, you were there and suddenly you just decided to disappear? Aiix.

Anyway, today was the day we decided to perhaps, more or less finalise the list of people going for syf. It’s really tedious and there were like so many factors to consider. Urgh, you know, urgh!? At the end of the day, we decided to have a talk with yx, just to know what her decision is. I hate talks. I freaking hate little private serious talks. It’s just that heavy silence, no one cracking a smile, everyone just staring at the ground with a stony expression. It’s even worse than ygygls, and that’s saying a lot. And it especially sucks when you have to be the one who confronts (or rather, we cornered, urgh, the thought) the person. It’s crazy and insane, but it’s unavoidable. After all, it’s not fair to us and the others if we don’t know her decision and it drags on and on and on. What if she decides to quit in the end right before syf, like what ling did before concert? It’s not fair to her either if she has to force herself to come for each session, hating every moment of it. That’s just awful isn’t it? There was this huge immense silence hanging in the air, and all I felt was disappointment. Why is it that syf 2005 can feel so different from syf 2007? How is it that someone can be so enthusiastic about something in 2005 and lose all of it in the next few moments? All I know is, I miss having the enthusiastic yx!

Change your mind please? I wish the 3 of us zhonghuians can still get a chance to play together in syf 2007. That’s all. That’s it.


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I am sick with a bloody [metaphorically] red nose. What I really want now is a hot water bottle, a bowl of hot soup, a snuggly bed to curl up in, and hongkong dramas to indulge in. Not these lousy math worksheets. Not this lousy jianbao I am doing. Especially not this shit I am going through right now.